napping

Please would someone pray for me? I hear so much gutter talk at work now that it's so hard not to still have it ringing in my head. It's so hard not to focus on it... and let it come back out. I need to devolope some strategies to help me avoid adopting it.

Today was long. Very long. And hard. But I'm home now, and I get tomorrow off. :o) And God is good.

I feel as though God has been challenging me on many things lately. Especially my pride, and my unwillingness to admit mistakes. He's also been speaking to me a great deal about trust, and what it means to surrender to Him. They go hand in hand I think... When I try something, especially something that means alot to me, I try as hard as I possibly can to do it right... and then when I fail, as I do all too often, I look around for something - someone - else to blame. But I've been praying that He will begin to humble me, and teach me how to admit my mistakes, and then trust that He will still work the situation out for good. Even when I don't like it. Which is one of the hardest parts for me... Especially the times when the intensity of my emotions violently hurls me outside the walls of reason. I forget so easily that only in the assurance of absolute trust in God will I find peace.

arg... I guess this post is long enough. I keep falling asleep between sentances :o
I'm tired.

May God draw each of you into a place of intimacy and fulfilment in His loving arms. I do not think God lacks anything to fulfill what He has created.